Don't @ me

Another 7 nights on has started. I didn't have a large workload, so I finished enough to have my break early. I like having my breaks when it is still dark out. When the sun comes up, more people start coming in the building and I feel watched. Most people probably couldn't care less whether I was sitting on the couch for break or not, but I feel watched nevertheless. In the dead of the night, I can lay on the couch and not feel self conscious about how it may appear.

I answered a question on Quora yesterday. "Do people with severe disabilities have rights?" I wanted to answer with a "yeah, duh" but I actually have a decent answer. My mom thought the question was just to get a rise out of people, but I gave the person the benefit of doubt on that and gave them some sources for their own reading if they so choose. I don't consider myself an expert on human rights but I do know that, at least in my own country, they are very much present for people with disabilities. While I acknowledge that there are countries that don't have the same level of rights spelled out in their laws, I am optimistic that people are moving in that direction with the expansion of global trade and therefore global interaction. When people can write a news article about poor conditions of a country that is read internationally, it puts pressure on the government to at least consider making things better. Perhaps I think too highly of people, but that's not a crime so don't @ me. 

Don't @ me is my new favorite saying since I saw it on the window of my doctor's office. They drew a rainbow that was missing yellow. Underneath someone wrote that they were out of yellow so "don't @ me." It made me chuckle to myself so now it's just stuck in my head. So now it will be in my blog posts until a new saying replaces it or I get bored of it.

In highschool, I had a year where my most said word was "awesome." Whether life really was awesome or I was just determined to see things that way, I am uncertain. While there certainly are many things about life that are awesome, I don't use that word quite as liberally now. I don't think it is because I am less happy. In fact, I was quite the anxious teenager and I am quite mellow but content these days. I think it has more to due with my intensity of emotion I felt those days. Awesome had an emotional intensity when I said it. Also, I had a lot of people I felt the need to perform with. I wanted them to see me in a positive light so I constantly put forward a positive image. Today, I don't feel the need to perform in the same way. I want to have mutually beneficial relationships. I think authenticity benefits people more than constant positivity. If you want a constant stream of positive energy, you're on the wrong blog. 

Sammy